a uninvited guest in dream

   the last night.in dream.i walked in hometown...i never want to go back my hometown.but.cannot believe.i always dream there.always there.i know.her beauty always keep in my heart.never forget.anyways.there.have so much my dreams.have so much nice momeries..of course.there are much sadness too.....

  the most surprised me was the guy in my dream.i never can supposed that i will dream him! in the dream.he was so close to me.so sweet and soft...

  after i waked up.i feel so sentimental.these years i seldom recalled him.but i know.he was in my heart.not for love.just for that the mood that i never can release ...

  he was my schoolfellow ,but not classmate.another class.a handsome guy.i liked him very much..but.i never show my feeling to him.for my poor amour-propre.how can i show feeling to a boy????? we went to travel together, after class.i always rush back to our room. stood back of window. wait him appear (his classroom faced our room).i often stared at his light in his room when i went by their building...he brought me a great dream.i wanted a life with him.

 that holiday.we would went back our hometown (we are in the same province,so we need to take the same train).but that day.i cannot bought the ticket.so i went to asked him to go with me the next day.he agreed.i were so glad.maybe.that will be a beginning??? i wished.

  but it was not.just a endness! in the trip.he just talked with another girl.seldom talked to me.i just pretenced sleepy.so i lean against the window.closed my eyes.but.how can i fall in sleep.i were listen his words.yes.seems.he enjoyed so much talking with the girl.that was a beautiful girl.i can understand he liked her.then.what can i do? the story.never got the chance to start.then.end!

  after that trip.i seldom kept touch with him.still had the feeling with him.but i knew.i couldnot!.a evening.i met another guy who lived in his same room.he said to me: he was waitting for me in their room. i just answer:is it true? then.i left.my heart was so quiet.no any feeling with it.i believed.just that guy joked to me! if he was waitting for me.he should tell me.not another guy mentioned lightly..and i werenot a girl who can woo a guy forwardly.that give me so much sadness.sometimes.i dreamed him.but.i know.if all thing can repeat.i should not to woo him forwardly.i never woo anybody forardly.i know that is my poor character

  yes.these years.i never forget him.but i donot think i have any dream about him again.but.why? he came into my dream this night?

  sometimes.i wish i can meet him again.and i will let him know.what he missed..

  ha.ha.so selfish dream!maybe.he forget me at all!