if dream is the life?????

    Dream him again.almost all night.all dream.just his smile and his warm hand...after wake up.nothing i have._.

    i donot think i still like him.but that i donot understand is i still often dream him.why?

   the sadness is as a tight fetter on my neck.i do want to yell to him,i do want to tear him .but i still do want his softness ....

   ha.ha.ha.what i do want? sometimes.i fear i will spend all my time as so.at day.i tell myself again and again.i should not.but.how can i control my dreams?

  my god.please help me.give me power to get rid off the dream....please!!! i do enjoy these dream.but i know.it isnot belong to me.i just have the true life.not dream!

if there is a light
   in your eyes
pressing on my shoulder
   so light..
if there is a light
choking my breath
   so heavy..

i can get away
to avoid your silhouette
  in my eyes
but how can i avoid your smile
  in my dream?
the faith cakied in desolation
  how to insist
for that visional softness?

if the life really like a dream
why do you always
   rove outside of my dream?
if the dream really like the life
why do i cannot
   insisit the promist outsife of my dream?

that bowstring hiding in bottom of heart
just like so, in silent night
singing so light
that tears keeping in canthus
just like so,for visional you
sliding so light