Adapting to Downfall

Being absent from school for 1 month due to my emotional breakdown and health in weak condition,It's really a total change when I step in school after arising and recovered from the dilemma.Before stepping in school after recovery,this is what I've expected to face whereby I need to be strong and stand for myself although it's damn tough.Thanks to the hero that always lies in me that help throught this tiny hardship for the moment where I never experience before.

I won't deny that things will change but not as drastic that I thought.The changes was drastic especially in my friendship bonds.Since the break-up with LB although we bump into each other at times it's just a breeze of sounds and voices unheard,whatmore it's rather hurt to see that the friendship of mine with  JY  has slowly  evaporates in the air to particles after the downfall I've face recently.

JY I know friendship really means alot to you and I don't deny it's hard to find true friendship where it goes to the extend that a sacrifece made by a friend towards you is called a true friendship.You've gave me a scenario of what friendship means to you before for insatnce when a gangster is to bash me up would you stand and run or save me???I truly understand your point but in life I don't think that this could be use in all situation to find out whose your true friend as a life is very precious for one and it's either between being alive or dead.At times,1 being killed it's better than both being killed.I'm sort of dissapointed to that you took the mistake I've made as a head prefect into our frienship matter and I find it's not fair to me either although I just kept quiet instead of voicing out as I felt that I've come to a point of being sick explaining something where no one will really truly understands me.But I forgive you for that as I decide not to tell you what's the reason of my downfall which leave you with your perception same goes to the whole school students and teachers that I've went phsycho in the 1 month.

It really hurts to see that  the mighty 3 which are once close friends no longer lasted till now because of the changes of getting in a relationship and also making mistakes which are not supposed too but can't help it cause it's I'm not myself that time.Besides,my duo personality had taken over me whereby it's not under my control.These factors has affected our friendship and we the mighty 3 has splited to own ways but 1 thing for sure I'm a longer ranger now as both of you prefer to get along together without me anymore.Pretty tough for me to accept it too but I still life has to move on.Whatever had happen it's over now whatever had been done has been done.I just have to find the way out and continue the journey and learn to accept that I'll have to go on without having them in my life to rely on a 100% anymore.Although this sounds pathetic,no matter what I would still carry on.When life is shaky,what must I do?Focus on my Outcome!!!