so tired !

   is it because i am older? i feel so tired these days.every morning.when i wake up.i just am bemused.stare at nothing. in office.when i hear the phone ring.my heart feel so upset.i am afraid somebody will call me to check their computer. evening.i go to do some exercise.then.go back for sleep..that is all my day! no any dreams!no any wish!no any fun!

  maybe.that will be my all? sometimes.i think i can see all my life.yes.just go as so.and then.end! all my wish just is it isnot a pain end.just that!

  the best time for me is when i sit on bed at night.yes.just sit .i donot know what will be my dream.i donot know what was my past.yes.what i had in my heart? the guy still send message to me.but.i feel so bad.yes.if i can go back .if all thing can restart.i still have no any way to love him.i doubt if i have the feel of love.i do think i wonot give up .but now.i know i had give up.what can i do if there is the guy? what can i do if there isnot the guy?

  always tell myself.to be strong.never to be weak.but i know.i amnot so strong.....