worring

   these days.i feel so tired.and cannot sleep well.maybe.that is because i got the news about he will come back.yes.i do fear that.but.what can i change? i told myself again and again: i should be glad everyday.but yes.face is smile.how about the heart?

   i donot know what i want in the world.sometimes.heart is so weak.but sometimes.i know.all isnot possible.all is my fault .because of my shit character..today.i lost all my dream.but.am i willing?

   i never blame anybody or anything.just myself.the only thing i fear right now is i will still feel the same when i die.

   ha.ha.what am i thinking? cheer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!