Best Friend + Boyfriend

Could it still be alive?

After being best buddies with LB and JY for about 2 to 3 years or more too,life it's like different well still love a period which we're like glue doing things together,outings,challenge each other,making things happen,shared stories,laughter and chats from the sky till ground.Although those were the times but I don't deny that each life too do have changes either bright or gloomy side.

Never knew,I got into a second relationship which is what the hack am I doing after being heart broked once yet the painful lesson doesn't give me a stop to what I'm doing.As I've played a chance of giving hope and never knew I fall for my own best buddy which had really help me lots.Wherever you are I'm grateful too have you.

After been attached for 10months,things get choppy 3 months before we splited although I couldn't face it but I knoe is best.I didn't know that for the pass few months of busyness,workcaholic behavior,back to my duo personality which brought me down to one another things which I didn't expect it also affected my own relationship.For this Ireally thank LB for accompanying me as far as this and I really felt pretty guilty and sorry about it by indirectly pulling you out from your friends hope that my apology could be accepted. Didn't new my case was different as I work like a robot never had feelings for anything after reflecting my thoughts but only a solemn one who lost my friends and the only one who I could always count for was him and JY by busyness and that causes me exhaustion mentally and physically.  

And finally I come to a point where,I still felt hard to cope with the break-up than before in my first relationship as I've never knew I found something similar in you to me where in lots being never had cause I discovered I'm different in a way of visuality and associating in perspective which could sound insane to people and what more a best friends before.Still searching for a person who could have the same ability.And I know now it's not the right time as through reflecting back whatever happened I know your not ready as I am but I don't deny that in certain ways it's not the time  for it.I still can't have the courage to speak to you although its kinda rude at times but oh well I finally manage to understand your situation which you wanted to do something to help maybe but you don't know what so you just ignored and acted cold towards me.I really hope I could leave this relationship aside wait till time comes in ready mode and just leave it to ''If you love something ,let it free,if it's meant for you,it'll come back to you'' till I'm out of my studios time being.

To cope with what I wanted to now although it's pretty tough but it's a real wise idea.But on the the other hand I would slowly gain back my best buddy once again and maybe boyfriend after studies when it's right then it's there if it's not life then I just have to go on..I do strongly believes that a Broken Mirror Could Be Put Back Together only it will not be perfect as it once is but it's always happy to be the trio once again.May I face reality,may I face fear in facts.May things come through unity once again.