a guy from net

   once.i went to a website which is for making friends on net. there are much people from everywhere in china.i left my information there.then.forget it.one morning.when i go into office.i get a message from qq. a guy contact me.and said.he was in the same city with me. want to make a friend.

   we talked some time.in fact.i donot know where is my heart when i talk on net.seems.all people are so far away from my heart.no one can touch my heart.i am so lonely.with him.i have the same feeling.but.seems.he is very interested to me.after some days.he asked to meet me.

   usually.i am hard to refuse another.i know that is a bad character.but.i always hard to change.when somebody ask me something.i always hard to tell them i donot want to do . i am afraid to see their disappointed face.but.now.can i meet him?

  i told him: it isnot good to meet..but he said: just to meet a friend.ok?

  ok.i agree.that evening.i were playing pingpong.he called me: his car was wait on our street. so i went to street.he stood there.looks high and handsome. i felt so shame making.donot know why.i am thirty something.but i always feel so shy to meet stranger.yes.he is stranger to me.in my heart.no friend. 

  he drived to hill where his company is there.then.we went to river.he stared at me.told me: so good feeling to see you. i know that.most man met me .always feel so.kind.soft and elegant .i just smiled.nothing to see.anyways.just stranger.my heart still is so far..

  i donot want to keep close to him.so.go back early.after i left.he asked me: can i invite you go out again.i refused:no.it isnot good.i do not want to meet him again.i donot like him at all.when he show how rich he is.i feel so bad.i hate these flirtatious man.does he think .he can play any woman just becasue of he has some money? i amnot rich .but i donot change money with sex.the only i need is love!

  so sorry.i donot love him at all!