a friend from france

   i decided that i never know more people in china.just because i donot want to meet somebody in life! maybe.i just want to do something to escape the true life.so i donot want to make more troulbe in my true life.i just want a simple life.a simple love...just that!

  i admit.i am so brave.i always escape.but.what way i can do to avoid i get hurt or i hurt another? i fear getting hurt.i fear to hurt another too.i just want to live in my world .and.have to say.much thing in life that i have no way to go! even.some mood.i cannot show too!

   so i went some foreigne website.ICQ or Yahoo...at first.i met a guy from france. he always works at night.so when i come into office.he always is on line.every day.we can talk some while.from his words.i found he is so sensitive and kind man...i almost think i liked him! everyday.we talked our life.one day.a friend invited us to go hill.i had no chance to talk to him on net.i felt so bad.so i go back early.just for talking to him on net! his words makes me better when i feel bad with life.

   one day.he sent a song to me.a french song.i donot know what he sing.but. just heard it.i feel that is so  dolorous song.i donot know why.always like these dolorous songs and music.sometimes.when i hear these music.i tear....seems.there is a hand to touch my heart.maybe.in my character.there are some tragical factor? when i were kid.i liked to dream tragical thing.love tragical story...i donot know it is my character create my life.or my life form my character?

we keep contaction for long time.then.he went to another country for work.he said he will start his career.he is so busy for his new career.he told me he will come to china to meet me.but i donot want to make any dream to him.if i cannot give him anything.then.i should leave his world.right?

  he is a good man.i wish he can find his happiness!