unsuccessful

   yes.from net.i met some good man.of course.there are many bad man too.their first words is: wants sex? and so on.i hate that.why does man donot know: for a woman.sex isnot all.without love.sex is nothing.i nevre want to have sex with the one who i donot love.

   i do think i had forgetten him.by these trying.in life.i donot mind him again..but.that night.a dream broke all!

  when i woke up from  dream.i felt so terrible.just becasue i dreamed him again!.in dreams.i walked with him on a road.he hug me....so sweet feeling

  i wept.asked my self again: do i love him? in my mind.i know he isnot the right one to me.but in my dream.why i still dream him so much?

  i remember a story.a devil was coverd on a vase in sea.the first handred years.he said: if some body take me out.i will give him all gold in the world.but no body take him out.the second handred years.he said:if some body takeme out.i will make him a king of the world.but no body ....the third handred years.he was so angry and disappinted.said: if some body take me out.i will killed him!...the story wanted to show how devil he was.but.i felt the devil is right.if you waited too long .your heart will be tired..then.you will complain...so i thought.if one day.he told me:he loves me.then.maybe.i will take his heart.and cut it with knight.let him to feel my pain...

   oh...sorry.how can i to be so terrilbe woman?

   i promise: i never let him to hurt my life.i never let him to hurt my heart again!