meeting again after ten years

    the schoolfellow is in a unicersity in jilin right now.he is a graduate student.and plan to study doctor's degree.from QQ.he told me something about his life.

   he was divorced.after we graduated.he went back his homwtown.i know that.in fact.when i came to the company.he wrote a letter to me.i just wrote back .and told him.i will marry.in fact.i didnot.i just want he forget me.then.he married a girl who was in his same company.but the girl has a bad character.always argue with him.after they had a daughter.the woman want to read graduate student.so did she.then.she want to study doctor's degree.so did she.but from that.she donot like him again.and always blame he didnot study and asked divorce.after they divorce.he started to study..simple life.but.he felt so sad .i know.he is a man who love family very much.but.thing is change in china.sometimes.you have to accept..

  since we keep touch again.every afternoon.he always talked to me.he told me;he always run back to room.just wanted to talk to me.i laugh.he said,his feeling to me never change.i donot know how to say.i donot want to hurt him again.but.nothing i can do for him.i donot want to hurt my son for any body too.

  that semester is over.he said to me: he wanted to come to here to meet me.he said: just to meet you.then.i can feel better.donot ask you anything.ok?

  how can i refuse? ok.i agreed.the second.he took the train to sichuan.his city is in northeasy of china.mine is in southwest of china.how far from each other!.his train will take about three days to here.when he arrived here.he called me.i went to station.he stood here.looks so tired.but not change more .i took him to hotel.he just stared at me.just stared at me..i tryed to keep natural .but.in his eyes.i felt so unnatural.i know.he never can think i am a friend.maybe.it is a wrong to agree he came? i donot know.when i left.he asked me:can i hug you? a little hesitate .i agree.in his chest.i felt his sadness that i cannot change.i had missed so good man who love me so deeply.today.how can i do? i cannot asked him anything.i cannot hurt him again!

  nothing happen.i went back home.i know.in china.today.if the thing as us happen.should be more hot.but i cannot.i still cannot feel love to him.so i should not to do anything .no sex.i just want to be his friend.

  the second day.he will left.i am so sorry for him.took so long train to meet me.but.just a short time.had to left .at that night.i send me a message.and said: i am in bridge.i want to jump into drive. i wept .if i owe you in my this life.can i repay you in my next life? if i can insiste that never drink the soup after i die.maybe.i can keep you in my memory.so i can find you in my next life.i will to be your best lover...but this life.we had no chance!